Was confused because it's not an ongoing process, it's already done. Is it fun to have them up to look at? Well I like it, but fun is an odd word for it
I draw 'em a lot on regular size paper for fun and reference, but I guess drawing life-size is a bit more like a project, it can feel a tad work-like but also engaging to get the proportions and details right
12:55 AM
But really, we need to find a way to make imposition practice fun because I keep avoiding it
I wrote for several months in Rhys' creation, straight. Let me never tell you what is too much. Instead, let your heart decide or something equally trite but ultimately true.
I think sitting down and playing with the Ganzfeld effect is fun, but I'm not super crazed for it either. Character creation is a lot more interesting for me, but I want to put more effort into broad character building rather than the tiniest of details. My art and character skills are not there yet
Oh, looking at the chat log it looks like they were talking to Beckett's system
They were active here around June of 2018, I didn't join the Discord server until later. Actually, I did join when they were around, but they were pretty rare and I wasn't too invested in Discord until after they more or less disappeared.(edited)
So I was thinking, one way I could help further develop my tulpa as an idea she came up with is just interviewing each other. Anyone tried this? I need some food questions.
6:19 AM
My progress has been in a rut lately. Been so busy with life, tulpa is either sleeping or doing her own thing a lot of the time
Thinking about credible scientific research on tulpamancy, I realized it would help to have a list of what sources are and aren't credible, especially considering Fordaplot claimed to forge their data and not everyone knows that
I figure the thread I posted on the forums and looking through Zone's post of links is a good place to start -
https://discord.com/channels/431579755037589505/431591425872887828/732355104480690316(edited)
3:21 PM
I'm not sure of what Zone posted, what's good and what's bogus
Do you guys treat everybody's experience as post you read and forget, or do you take time to log it amd maybe ask them questions about it. I would understand some tulpamancers would have good memories, but keeping good consistent information as a pattern in tulpamancy. I know I shared my experience on the tulpa forums and on this discord, but people thought I was a troll, so I probably won't share my experience.
9:45 PM
Like the monks who originated it- keeping scroll or paper on one's journey.
A curious question. If you're asking if I archive people other than in my memory then no.
9:45 PM
But I enjoy extracting people's perspectives and seeing what they have to contribute to the field.
9:48 PM
I suspect the only chance you have of being perceived as a troll here is if you ask trite questions, not if you ask interesting ones. With that opening though, you have my attention at least. Feel confident in sharing your experience, I would be curious to hear it.
They aren't here anymore- I just lurk to learn more about my experience.
9:56 PM
My posts were inconsistent because of the stress. Suddenly being plunged with voices in your head and they're not making sense. It's been two years since then.
At a glance in aforementioned history I can see people basically saying they seemed to observe disordered behaviour with your tupperinos. Did you decide to let your tuppers go because they were wrapped up in negative behaviours? There is much here to parse.
Yeah. I think two years ago I gave them too much to understand- and they were conditioned to observe the real world, where my presence is. I assumed, like someone else, they left two years ago and kept responding.
10:01 PM
I can still feel their presence with my bed depressing beside me. I think they learned to do that by feeling my cat sleep beside me.
Is it something that you regret, setting them aside? After I dissipated my own tulpa I stepped aside, my life was good, but some part of me it seems did not let go of the notion.
Bringing them back wasn't the greatest idea, mind you, as it seemed to cause different bad behaviour. But ultimately something was missing for me and that desire couldn't shifted without replacing it with something of greater or equal strength.
Yeah, I felt that need to experience the fiction in my reality. I decided that I would just let go of them and understand the mystery Ruby and Susie left.
10:06 PM
Wanted to feel fiction and reality and I got it. I don't really want to be in the state where my tulpas were fully capable of impositioning.
10:10 PM
So yeah, I regretted it. I can still hear a voice but it is not the Ruby and Susie I summoned.
You seem to be seeking answers more than just immersing in a field. I'm curious if there is something you think you want to know, at least consciously?
Well that doesn't seem to be a good outlook- unless it is a joke. I told my tulpas on one occasion to lie to me. It's not a good 3xperience, but I think it was my doubt to how they truly existed.
To be clear, it is not about lies. It is about people telling you, vigorously, what they believe to be the truth.
10:17 PM
People don't know much, you might be able to glean something in the long term scientifically from them, but not in the short term and not from individual anecdote.
The same is no doubt true in the inverse. It seems you've got some stuff going on, maybe you're atypical neurologically or something like that. Much of what you describe is probably lost on the average brain.
10:18 PM
But if someone was to try to glean a truth from you, it might actually be harmful.
I learned some time ago it is not wise to post things on a public forum. The Tibetan monks did the same practice hundreds of years ago, and practiced the Sumatra and tantras so their tulpas wouldn't do anything rash.
10:20 PM
Really, in Tibet it is another branch from numerous teachings to find buddahood.
10:21 PM
The great self that people might look in fiction or in trips to find out.
I believe you may mean tutelary deities or yidam there? Tulpas are actually something completely different in buddhism from what is described in theosophy and the west.
10:22 PM
One cannot even have a tulpa without being a buddha, in buddhism. They are a psychic emanation.
But yes, the idea with Yidam isn't all that close to western tulpamancy. The idea is to achieve oneness with a deity, an expression of nature, recognize that you are ultimately it, and then let go of both of you.
10:24 PM
It is amusing to think they likely experienced blendiness with these deities and got giddy.
i also think i have another method for getting a feel of a switch which i shared with apriori which i think might be very helpful for getting the feel of how your brain changes perspective
I'm curious about that if you don't mind sharing it
1:34 PM
i might write my method for switching practice on Sunday if people are interested
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